but before that, pwede ko ba murahin sarili ko this early? one time lang.
punyeta ka ja hehe.
haay.. pano ko ba sisimulan.. oh well.. i have been smoking since 2nd year college.. nag stop ako for a year, went back.. stop ulit for couple of months and went back again.. but there was no intention of engaging in that vice for good. i have to admit i smoked awfully a lot since i started in law school. what can you expect? smoking is legal in the campus.. smoking relieves stress esp when you're about to have a recitation.. smoking calms me.. it makes me think 10 times better (ok, this one i just made up. haha!)
last night, i decided na palabhan yung pants ko. argh. i forgot i left that fucking lighter sa pocket. and jaraaaaaaan... the stupid maid gave the lighter to my mom.. read it.. SA MAMA KO!
so there. my mom handed me the lighter and asked casually "bakit ka may lighter? naninigarilyo ka ba?"
PATAY.
i'm so lucky i'm still groggy since i'm sleepin.. i answered lazily with "hindi". just that. i didnt even bother to explain myself coz that would be too obvious or somewhat guilty.
and now the ultimate question is.. pag tinanong ba ako ulit ng mama ko, AAMIN NA BA ko?
jesus. i'm 23 years old. and yes, sila nagpapa-aral saken (ouch ouch ouch!). and even if i'm an adult already.. i still can't deny the fact that i am still under their administration since its their money i'm wasting este using.
so what will happen to me now?
i wish i know. GrRrR! napaka careless kasi!!
actually this is the third time.. so i guess they have an idea already.. or kung masyado sila tiwala saken na kahit uber obvious na ignore pa rin nila. 1st was when i accidentally (or stupid lang talaga ko? hey, c'mon, first mistake to eh) left a pack of yosi inside my bag and my mom out of the blue suddenly decided to borrow that bag. she asked me that same question as above. my lame excuse? i told her we had to analyze the nicotine content of the cigarettes. i hope she believed me. haha.. second was with my dad.. i have two packs of yosi in my bag and i decided to throw them away..san ko tinapon? sa common trash can namin. all of a sudden nakita ko hawak na nya yung plastic na andon yung yosi plus two skyflakes na di pa nabubuksan. he asked me kung baket ko raw tinapon yung skyflakes eh hindi pa nga raw nabubuksan.. waaaaaa!!!!!! kinuha ko nga agad. sobrang kita kaya sa plastic. wish ko lang bulag dad ko that time. hayy.. and eto na yung third time...
ewan ko ha, this time around, parang patay na talaga ako..as in dead!!! hehe!!
oh well.. life sucks.. and it's just unfortunate na it's my day.
i'm also thinking na maybe, just maybe.. eto na yung sign na i should stop smoking. haha. oh well goodluck diba?! instead of dying sa lung cancer.. i'll die of stress and nervousness.. add to that na insane pa ko.
what a nice ending. sheesh.