i am still sleeping when i heard a loud knock at the door.

"what?"

"Tingnan mo nga si tomi, nasagasaan ko pa tuloy"

anak ng JUEteNG!

i hurriedly opened the door and rushed to my poor baby.

and there he was. lying more fragile and weak than yesterday.

i hate my self. i so hate myself because i can't do anything. i can't even send him to the vet! i don't have a f*cking money! and how in the world will i introduce the idea to my parents? when all weekend they have been ranting about so many bills to pay? waaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!

all i can f*cking do is watch him deteriorate day by day.

believe me. it's killing me inside. first maxie. then tomi. why can't it be keni instead? why does it always have to be the dog that i fancy?

nagsimula to dahil pinaliguan ng 2 beses ng epal na helper na yun eh!

atleast, she's out of this house. FOR GOOD.

i know she's upset, but who cares? serves her right.

*sigh*

don't you hate it when you feel so powerless to protect someone/something so dear to you?

and i know any moment now he'll leave us. oh its killing me inside even more.

i'm sorry baby tomi.. i'm so sorry....

i know to some i might be over reacting.

but i love tomi.

'nuff said.